I'm sorry to hear about what your presently going through.
Please feel free to view the resources on my homepage.
You will find some assistance there.
Time's like these can be very difficult to deal with, and be overwhelming at times, but one thing rest assure that there is a God that love's you. He love's you, and want's to provide for you.
It can be difficult to believe in what you don't see. I haven't seen Jesus, but I have clearly seen his presence move in the midst of my life that left me in awe.
He will help you, but you must by faith accept Jesus into your life, and believe that he is a rewarder to those who seek HIM.
Seek Jesus my friend, and you shall find HIM.
Make HIM lord of your life, and you will never regret it.
Shalom, love, and blessing's.
Mike